The Magician
In the throws of change, still in flux, I am faced with the things I need to change in my life right now. Right now, my focus is removing obstacles between me and my goals. But what was strange, when I looked to see what my obstacle was, it was my reflection I saw, so I have set out to change this.So I search. And Ive found that so far, my life's experience is telling me that Im holding myself back, Im hiding. Because of my diferences, Ive always felt that in order to be tolerated by others, I needed to quell my intelect, my emotions, my gifts, even my own beauty! A day that was emotionaly trying for me uncovered this for me, as I walked in the front door one day, and so after had a conversation with my then roommate who had a problem dealing with my giddy beahvaior... ( this comming form a woman who takes everything out on every one eles) and told me I needed to learn how to deal with my problems. I told her I was dealing with it and pointed out that I wasnt crying on her shoulder.. and told her "Ok. the next time I see you in tears Ill tell you I dont want to deal with it. " At least my outburst was positive !... And I cant take it any more. It seems my life's dream is requiring a bigger commitment that I once thought, and I am adapting to that. Ive also had the chance to learn more about myself, a seemingly nessesary step in order to move on ...Which in turns brings me to The Magician, a card representing a person utlizing their gifts, proficiantly, communing with nature, a place I know I need to be in life, a reminder of the task at hand.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Monday, September 24, 2007
Cheth
The Heirophant
At the introduction to the class, discussing the materials, we as a group shared a bit about our sorrounding influences. More than a few of us seemed to be facing issues about being ourselves. When we selected a Tarot card, The Heirophant, we definately realized that the truth had been spoken. As we were instructed to study at our own pace, my focus began to shift to a card and corresponding path indicated by an area of the body that tells me I need to work on this.
So, on a personal level I first thought of the left side of my body, where I have the most problems. Picking the shoulder, I was led to The Chariot. I felt that by examining it I should be able to find what is needed for healing, and apply it. Taking a look at this card, for me it reveals a need for me to decide what vehicle I need to utilize to acheive my goals and reach my destianton confidently.
I conducted the workbook stepping into the now, and all questions were answered positively! For the ritual, I looked no further than the household cat, noting that animals seemed most content when they do what they do best, watching, stalking, eating, sleeping and cavorting about, no lofty aspirations, just a need for survival and a desire to stay dirty, as it seems animals become disconteneted when they lose the sent of outdoors. Her name is Smokey, a grey indoor cat, never realy venturing past the threshold of the balcony of the second story apartment we lived in unless my roommates or myself were out with her. But in recent months she has become very insisstant about exploring more of the outside, crying at the door untill she gets let out weather she was alone or not, wich is something none of us saw comming untill she is in front of us DEMANDING TO GO OUT!!! ;)
My moment of focus yeilded a strong desire to change my surroundings, and it made sense.
At the introduction to the class, discussing the materials, we as a group shared a bit about our sorrounding influences. More than a few of us seemed to be facing issues about being ourselves. When we selected a Tarot card, The Heirophant, we definately realized that the truth had been spoken. As we were instructed to study at our own pace, my focus began to shift to a card and corresponding path indicated by an area of the body that tells me I need to work on this.
So, on a personal level I first thought of the left side of my body, where I have the most problems. Picking the shoulder, I was led to The Chariot. I felt that by examining it I should be able to find what is needed for healing, and apply it. Taking a look at this card, for me it reveals a need for me to decide what vehicle I need to utilize to acheive my goals and reach my destianton confidently.
I conducted the workbook stepping into the now, and all questions were answered positively! For the ritual, I looked no further than the household cat, noting that animals seemed most content when they do what they do best, watching, stalking, eating, sleeping and cavorting about, no lofty aspirations, just a need for survival and a desire to stay dirty, as it seems animals become disconteneted when they lose the sent of outdoors. Her name is Smokey, a grey indoor cat, never realy venturing past the threshold of the balcony of the second story apartment we lived in unless my roommates or myself were out with her. But in recent months she has become very insisstant about exploring more of the outside, crying at the door untill she gets let out weather she was alone or not, wich is something none of us saw comming untill she is in front of us DEMANDING TO GO OUT!!! ;)
My moment of focus yeilded a strong desire to change my surroundings, and it made sense.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
The Crown Chakra
Focus: Crown
The upper end of the central power channel, the thousand petaled lotus.
A connection with the divine, the gift of healing, inner peace .
By taking a look at the atributed for this chakra, a desire to keep my connection was strong, and I am able to see how inportant it is to me and my life. The most pressing issue being putting me in the right situation so I dont have to leave that part of my life behind. Its what started me on my current path. Its easy to see where the need for healing is in y life, and leaving that part of my life behind that was most important to me caused me a great deal of pain. Being at the other end of the situation looking back, I see that I had to learn abit more about myself, reafirming my beliefes, and it couldnt have happened at a better time...
Mood:7 NRG : 7
The upper end of the central power channel, the thousand petaled lotus.
A connection with the divine, the gift of healing, inner peace .
By taking a look at the atributed for this chakra, a desire to keep my connection was strong, and I am able to see how inportant it is to me and my life. The most pressing issue being putting me in the right situation so I dont have to leave that part of my life behind. Its what started me on my current path. Its easy to see where the need for healing is in y life, and leaving that part of my life behind that was most important to me caused me a great deal of pain. Being at the other end of the situation looking back, I see that I had to learn abit more about myself, reafirming my beliefes, and it couldnt have happened at a better time...
Mood:7 NRG : 7
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
A new Vision
The Brow Chakra
Focus: command ; Wisdom ; inspiration
With this focus, I have taken the opportunity to reexamine my outlook, ideal and plan for my life. Recent events have given me reason to reevaluate even me. A constant struggle to reach what I thought was my Ideal, only to learn I held back the most important parts of my self, and I finaly reached a point where I truly want to share my gifts with the world, and it seems to be opening up for me.
Been dealing with a few health issues that have made me realized this... so im a truly greatful, now i have a better understanding of me...
mood: 9 : NRG: 6
Focus: command ; Wisdom ; inspiration
With this focus, I have taken the opportunity to reexamine my outlook, ideal and plan for my life. Recent events have given me reason to reevaluate even me. A constant struggle to reach what I thought was my Ideal, only to learn I held back the most important parts of my self, and I finaly reached a point where I truly want to share my gifts with the world, and it seems to be opening up for me.
Been dealing with a few health issues that have made me realized this... so im a truly greatful, now i have a better understanding of me...
mood: 9 : NRG: 6
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