Cheth

The Heirophant
At the introduction to the class, discussing the materials, we as a group shared a bit about our sorrounding influences. More than a few of us seemed to be facing issues about being ourselves. When we selected a Tarot card, The Heirophant, we definately realized that the truth had been spoken. As we were instructed to study at our own pace, my focus began to shift to a card and corresponding path indicated by an area of the body that tells me I need to work on this.
So, on a personal level I first thought of the left side of my body, where I have the most problems. Picking the shoulder, I was led to The Chariot. I felt that by examining it I should be able to find what is needed for healing, and apply it. Taking a look at this card, for me it reveals a need for me to decide what vehicle I need to utilize to acheive my goals and reach my destianton confidently.
I conducted the workbook stepping into the now, and all questions were answered positively! For the ritual, I looked no further than the household cat, noting that animals seemed most content when they do what they do best, watching, stalking, eating, sleeping and cavorting about, no lofty aspirations, just a need for survival and a desire to stay dirty, as it seems animals become disconteneted when they lose the sent of outdoors. Her name is Smokey, a grey indoor cat, never realy venturing past the threshold of the balcony of the second story apartment we lived in unless my roommates or myself were out with her. But in recent months she has become very insisstant about exploring more of the outside, crying at the door untill she gets let out weather she was alone or not, wich is something none of us saw comming untill she is in front of us DEMANDING TO GO OUT!!! ;)
My moment of focus yeilded a strong desire to change my surroundings, and it made sense.

The Crown Chakra

Focus: Crown
The upper end of the central power channel, the thousand petaled lotus.
A connection with the divine, the gift of healing, inner peace .
By taking a look at the atributed for this chakra, a desire to keep my connection was strong, and I am able to see how inportant it is to me and my life. The most pressing issue being putting me in the right situation so I dont have to leave that part of my life behind. Its what started me on my current path. Its easy to see where the need for healing is in y life, and leaving that part of my life behind that was most important to me caused me a great deal of pain. Being at the other end of the situation looking back, I see that I had to learn abit more about myself, reafirming my beliefes, and it couldnt have happened at a better time...
Mood:7 NRG : 7

A new Vision

The Brow Chakra
Focus: command ; Wisdom ; inspiration
With this focus, I have taken the opportunity to reexamine my outlook, ideal and plan for my life. Recent events have given me reason to reevaluate even me. A constant struggle to reach what I thought was my Ideal, only to learn I held back the most important parts of my self, and I finaly reached a point where I truly want to share my gifts with the world, and it seems to be opening up for me.
Been dealing with a few health issues that have made me realized this... so im a truly greatful, now i have a better understanding of me...
mood: 9 : NRG: 6

The Truth of my Ultimate expression

The Throat Chakra
Focus; communication and expression
On the tail end of a good look @my heart, (literaly! ) I am now faced with the truth of my ultimate expression... and I feel like this will be the key. Things still a bit hectic, and dealing with a few health issues, Im taking it easy and taking the chance to wax introspective. Still feeling harried and riding a wave of positivity...
Activity has started... I met some one a few days ago, who asked me what m definition of time was... and used to model... go figure... I am rethinking alot of things right now... and I am filled with a strong desire to get away... still searching abit I guess..
Mood : 7 : NRG : 6

The gift: 3 am etrernal

Heart chakra
Focus : spiritual acent.
A pretty hectic week, looking at letting go of expectations that lead to nowhere... Money issues have got me thinking...I have realized that the life I want is going to require a bigger commitment from me than I thought.Which is fine by me...Contemplating unveling as it were ... but I dont think that is the answer. Because I know that I can be who I am, but I want to be able to be seen for who I am on the inside tooI am also realizing that I want to make a change from being a consumer to being a producer.
The next thing on my plate, is a return to all things sacred, and I am looking forward to it. The key seems to be being who I am with out holding back, and getting past the pain.
week 6 : mood :7 : NRG 7

Tales from the flip side of the Rainbow: prt 2

February
Focus :The Solar Plexus : Personal Power
Still in the throws of upheaveal, but this time, there is a lot more emotion than I was acustomed to deaking with. Its been a very cold winter, and my body has taking its toll. Things tend to temper themselves out when I relax and literaly go with the flow. Valentine's Day just passed so I am RAW...
It feels like I am where Ive been before... but also different... This time I am able to dig deep. I know I want to make it throuigh this... Still adrit on memory bliss and taking things as the come. Work is steady and unchallenging... wich monopolized most or my efforts for week four. I have a nagging feeling that I am trying to fix something that cant be fixed. And a startiling realazation as to how much damage Ive endured.
Not agreeing with a certain mindset.. but understanding, aproaching a few decisions. The main focal point is unveiling ...
Week 5 : mood :8 : NRG: 7

Tales from the flip side of the Rainbow

Well, I think its time to let you know that I have made a few changes today, am I am know in counseling, so the following will be a recount of the therapy.
I stating this month, and I am using a working book called "The 7 healing chakras" in which I examine issues in my life and relate them to a root issue in life that corresponds to the developmental phase ( age ) of the specific chakra that governs that area of life ...

January - The begining
Focus: Root chakra : survival
To start off, I was feeling a little underwhelmed at the whole idea after the third session ... Then I dug into the workbook ... I was able to identify an emotion that caused me to block out dealing with my mother.
Right now my friends are in the throws of personal flair ups, and my life is starting to temper it's self out. There are some issues clouding my day to day, as I have met some one, and Im getting curous, after weeks of contention things are finaly starting to make me smile!
Week 1- 3: Mood :8 NRG: low - averge
Foucus: Sacral chakra: Emotion
Have been pretty jovial this past few weeks, the pressure's off, and Im taking an opportunity to get back into the swing of things...Lots of good movies this past week and I start work tomorrow... things feel like they are still abit on the touchy side with the roommate thing, stayed busy and hung out with friends.
Week 4: Mood 8 : NRG : Average - good